To Whom It May Concern: I Give Up

To whom it may concern,

Ang pangit pakinggan na kung kailan ka tumanda, doon ka pa nagwala. Tumandang paurong. Instead of becoming wiser and a better person, mas lalo kang naging foolish and evil. I pity you, and I'm afraid for your soul dahil hindi mo alam kung gaanong ka-horrible ang place where you'll end up if you'll not repent. I forgave you even though you're not asking forgiveness. I tried to forget what you've done, but now you're doing it again. I gave you chance, but you blew it away. It seems like you don't want my forgiveness at all and you don't want to change for the better.

Akala mo seguro hindi ko alam ang mga ginagawa mo? Hindi lang ako nagsalita even though grabe sa dumi ng ginagawa mo, na kahit sinong tao ang maka alam, will be dumbfounded, pero binalewala ko lahat yun dahil mahal kita at bilang isang Cristiano gusto kong magpatawad at kalimutan lahat ng ginawa mo. Lahat na ginawa ko, hindi kita pinabayaan, ilang beses akong humingi ng tawad sa mga nagawa kong kasalanan sa 'yo noong ako'y unbeliever pa, inilapit kita sa Dios pero ayaw mo, ginawa mo lang panakip ang Dios para magmuka kang inocente at godly while doing your abominable things. Grabe na ang mga kasinungalingan at deception mo. Hindi ka na ba talaga marunong matakot sa Dios? Hindi lang ikaw sa akin nagkakasala, kundi pati sa Dios. Remember that God sees every secret thing you do. You cannot hide from Him. Mabuti ang Panginoon at mapagpasensya, pero meroon ding hangganan ang lahat. Mag-isip kang mabuti, you still have time before He exposes all your wickedness to everyone.

Nothing is covered up that will not be revealed, or hidden that will not be known. Therefore whatever you have said in the dark shall be heard in the light, and what you have whispered in private rooms shall be proclaimed on the housetops. - Luke 12: 2-3

My heart is crying and bleeding, but not because of the evil things you've done against me, but because of the evil things, you're doing to yourself and to those people who love you. I give up. Bahala na ang Dios sa 'yo, there's nothing more I can do. But don't worry, I still forgive you and praying for you that you may find God's forgiveness. I would rather see you be saved than go to hell. I don't want to treat you as my enemy, but as a person who needs to be saved. Jesus Christ is the only one who can save you. Heed His Word. Repent from all your unrighteousness. Come to Him with a godly sorrow in your heart and He'll forgive you. It has been proven many many times before na nasa huli lagi ang pagsisisi. Repent.

And as for me, I will continue to walk on the path of righteousness. Hindi ako papabayaan ng Dios. Patunay dyan na simula pa lang noong 1972 sa hospital kung saan ako ibinigay ng doctor sa mga kinikilala kong magulang, up until now, hindi ako iniwan o pinabayaan ng Panginoon, in fact, He blessed me with so much. "Even if my father and mother abandon me, the LORD will hold me close." (Psalm 27:10). Faithful ang Panginoon. He will never leave me. He will never forsake me. The more you hurt me, the more you hurt yourself. Hindi mo ako kayang saktan. God is my protector. He will deliver me from all of them who fight against me. 

At pagdating ng araw, when you're at your lowest and weakest and nobody wants to help you or pick you up, I will pick you up at aalagaan kita (even though kasamaan ang ipinalit mo sa mga kabutihan ko sa iyo), and you will glorify God at sasabihin mong "Napakabuti talaga ng Panginoon Dios". Sandali nalang ang buhay natin sa mundo, use it to honor God, your creator. I wish you love. Praying for you always. May the good Lord have mercy on your soul. God bless you.


From a person who cares for you.

BLESSED IS THE MAN THAT HEARS ME, WATCHING DAILY AT MY GATES, WAITING AT THE POSTS OF MY DOORS. FOR WHOEVER FINDS ME FINDS LIFE, AND SHALL OBTAIN FAVOR OF THE LORD. BUT HE THAT SINS AGAINST ME WRONGS HIS OWN SOUL: ALL THEY THAT HATE ME LOVE DEATH. - Proverbs 8:34-36 (American KJV)